someone help me get AS FAR AWAY from that narcissistic bum.

so i cried like a maniac and sucked it up, got my application for the housing authority sent in to the appropriate people (i think). now, all i need to do is send my tax returns and verify my income with the lady i sent them to. i thought i found tax returns that i used for another application for another apartment but i need to find where i was looking when i found those. i thought it was my cell phone but i can't find them there. so i looked on my pc instead and i can't find them anywhere. so now i'm gonna look on my cell phone again. i won't be satisfied until i'm as FAR away from that immature, selfish, narcissist of a mom who i can't remember the last time i was satisfied enough to call her my mom. she's had nothing but bad intentions for me, except for when my grandparents were in my life to make sure i wasn't getting mistreated. honest to God. she can't even take care of her OWN kids responsibly- she should've just aborted me. i'm pretty sure that's why people don't feel the necessity to help me move. "OH! SHE'S NUTS AND SHE CAN JUST TAKE CARE OF HER MOM INSTEAD OF HER MOM ALWAYS WHINING TO ME!" i might be nuts but i'm also not an idiot. i know when someone is good for me to keep in my life and my mom is just looking to cling to me and drag me down with her. not gonna happen. it's pretty sad when a person is disabled to the point where they can't read until they find out their daughter has a blog, so she can MAGICALLY read now! you know what that's called? LAZY. and she should maybe consider acting since she knows how to act illiterate to the point where people actually say she can be supported by social security. you're a disgrace. the normal person would probably be thinking i'm a bitch but i know the narcissist just magically can read now since she likes reading about people talking about her but she's too stupid to realize over half the time i talk about her- it's nothing to be proud of. I'M SICK OF THAT BUM GETTING AWAY WITH USING ME AS A SHIELD WHILE LIFE KICKS HER ASS- SINCE MY DAD ISN'T ALIVE ANYMORE TO BE IN THE PICTURE TO KICK HER WHILE SHE USES ME AS A SHIELD. i've had MANY traumatizing dreams reminiscing this shitty parenting (mostly around the time of my last bowel surgery). SHE CAN'T SAY THAT I'M LYING BECAUSE THAT'S JUST ANOTHER REASON FOR ME TO CUT HER OFF AND CHOSE TO NEVER SPEAK TO HER AGAIN. she must be telling people that i'm just lying about her putting me in front of her to shield my dad's kicks at her because my brother said, "i believe you." after i told him about her putting me in front of her while my dad was kicking her, i never asked him if he thought i was lying or anything.. so this must've came up in a conversation involving my mom because he never would've said, "i believe you" for the hell of it.